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❤ Thursday, November 26, 2009

2nd semester ❤

I just got my timetable for the 2nd semester,
what a MIRACLE?
i don't have classes on Monday,
but i have to study from 9 am-4.30pm on Tuesday to Friday
but nevermind,
at least i have 3 days to rest

*****wait a minute,
i just found that every Thursday i do not have recess at all,
my timetable is like that>>
9am-11am Business Information System and Technology
11am-1pm Fundamental of Accounting(tutorial)
1pm-3pm Fundamental of Accounting(lecturer)
3pm-4pm Macroeconomics
OMG!!!!!
that means in the morning i have to have double meals???

This coming semester i got 3 subjects,
each subject will be having two lecturers a week,
its like today lecturer tomorrow tutorial the next day lecturer and the next
next day tutorial,
Yawn,will be busy soon

okay,after came back from shoppeh,
Maple-ed awhile,until darling went to sleep
then doing some English vocab exercises now
I bought the book 3 years ago *shame*
since 3 years ago I did not touch it at all then I think now it’s the best time for me to brush up my English learn some new words make some improvement instead of laying in the couch watching TV most of the time or sticking my butt on the chair facing the computer surfing for nothing

bloody hell only 20 questions but it seems like I am taking ages to complete them , there are many many words I don’t recognize *cry, for each queation
I’m given 4 answers to choose that’s why I’m so slow.
I might still be doing these until the cock crows tomorrow morning
( I don’t want this to happen) oh my lord give me strength !!!

besides that earlier I was also surfing some colleges info on the net,
i'm confused, i'm really directionless ,
ain’t know what to do ,
I think most probably I’m going to stick with my old college *sigh NO FUN!

I was listening to Patience by Take That
I think most of you have heard of it ,
the lyrics describe what I’m feeling now so well especially this one
I'll try to be strong
Believe me I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me

Bee ❤
1:10 AM

❤ Wednesday, November 25, 2009

BLABLALA ❤

I should be sleeping now but im not because…
hmm I don’t know why,
there are always too much stupid shits on my mind that make me keep on thinking and thinking
Was planning a victorious post for today..
but i guess it wasn't meant to be.
Kinda lazy to blog now..
hahahahh.. will elaborate later.

But anyway, i want to thank my group members
for all the effort that we all put in.
Even though in the end things didn't turn out as well as we wanted it to,
but it's worth it i guess?
I'm trying console all of us. >.<

My life sucks.
hahaha.. i bought a new book last week
and i haven't had the time to start reading it.
I want to buy more books! Someone pls stop me.
My shelf is filling up with books.
Yawn,wasting and wasted moneh~

Going to watch 2012 with a bunch of idiots later =x
*yawn*

Bee ❤
3:06 AM

❤ Wednesday, November 18, 2009

YAWN ! ❤

You know what paradise is?
It's a LIE.....
It's merely an ILLUSION....
It does NOT exist...
And never will exist...
There's no such thing as a paradise on earth...
No way this place would exist...
Everyone's dreaming of living in paradise...
Enjoying life to the fullest in paradise..
hassel free...problem free...enjoying mother nature...
no quarrels..no hectic lifestyle..no burden..no hatred..no misunderstandings..
yea, that is what I call paradise....

I feel kinda lucky too, since yesterday (even though i was kinda unlucky)...
I used to think that you were the one
I'm so glad to have known you.
But now,its over
you don't seem to understand me anymore.
Even I could realize that something was wrong, but why not you??
I know that it's not that you don't understand.
you just don't wanna understand the whole situation.
you just can't accept the fact.
you are putting the blame on me,
I know.I'm sorry i had to say this in such a manner.
for you know that I'm feeling really tired already?
I'm sorry if I hurt you badly, but it's not my choice.
I seriously don't wish that our wonderful and precious friendship would end just like that.
Really hope that our friendship will be FOREVER!!!
Sorry i Just cant control my feeling now

You may hate me for this post.
But I just can't stand it anymore.
I NEED to pour it out.
Our point of view maybe different.
But this is how i exactly feel.
I wish i knew what you are thinking!
I still miss you,and I'll always cherish the moments we had,
I hope you won't forget those moments too.
Seriously hope that the memories will live.
Please forgive me for all the wrongs I've done.
I pray that our relationship will never end,come what may....

and...
Facing things that i never expect i would have to face.
never thought that it came that fast.
i tried to solve it but can't.
it seems like it grows in me without knowing it. it's unbelievable!
When i started to accept this faith.
Many objections came to me.
No place for me to run or hide.
i don't know who i should look for.
i know even if i seek for help, i may not get the help i need.
it's too complicated only i can make the decision my own.
i don't know what i'm doing now is right or wrong.
i really don't want to take the wrong step.
it's about my future. i'm so confused! i need guidance,
I need support.
Not anymore stress!
I'm afraid I couldn't take it and I'll give up.
but I really don't want these days to come.

I really can cry out..but cant
went down to living hall watch tv until 6 am
until my dada awake then i str8 go back to my room

Bee ❤
12:10 AM

❤ Friday, November 13, 2009

Childhood ❤

I hate the fact that I cant put passwords for my articles in blogspot.....

Nth much happened today,
went to college in the early morning to get the file from my friend for the stupid dumb project.
After that back from college around 12 30,bathe and prepare to go out with another bunch of idiots lol =x
Nth much,they spent their time at arcade,
well you know I hate this kind of place.
What to do,stayed at starbuck and enjoyed vanilla shake alone.bla....

Anyway, i bumped into a childhood friend just now at Sunway
At 1st glance... i dun even remember who he is...
Though I stil dun remember his name now
but omg, he really changed a lot...
Gone is that young shy boy who played with me
in his place now stand a tall, tan color, playboy-ish, stylish guy
and he dun look that shy anymore... and obviously not so innocent looking
I remember him challenging me 2 a game of drinking a year or two back
and gotten drunk himself... fooling around with his dad like 2 big kids

As we grow older, we lost the innocence in us...
Emotionally and psychically
We are not those little kids that play with strangers and runs around happily not caring a thing in the world
Last time, we dun mind rolling in mud, messy hair, dirty hands
now it took us 1hour just to get ready for a day out
and we snapped at whoever that touched our carefully styled hair...
As kid, the most important thing is to play, eat, sleep
Throwing a tantrum whenever we don't get Wat we want
but, imagine a 19 year old stamping his feet throwing a tantrum...
People will think he is crazy
Our biggest worries as a kid is not being able to play with friends,
or not getting 100 in tests
But as an adults, we fear of not being in the "in-geng", we fear being back stabbed, even handing in assignments on time is a problem.....
bottom line, i miss being a kid

Bee ❤
8:59 PM

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Accounting sux ❤

It took me 9months but i finally realize
That accounting is so not for me....
Why it took me 9months to reach that conclusion when my accounting sucks since the beginning of the year, that is a mystery that I'll never know...
I can not and will never understand accounting
and I give my highest respect to those that excel in
accounting or even had the courage to pursue that course....
To think that,
I once told my mum that i would like to be an accountant when i grew up is unbelievable...
I must be nuts or under hypnotise when I say those words....
No wonder people say that accountants are boring people *no offence*
if i had to face numbers and accounts and journals every single day,
I'll lose all my hair before i reach 30year old....
next time, if I ever had the slightest thought that accounting is fun...
Please knock my head and remind me the evilness of accounting...
and in the future, when I'm looking for jobs
The 1st rules would have to be no accounting involved...
or if I'm taking over dad's company...
I'll give the highest pay in the company to all my accountants... lol~

I'm having my accounting exam tomorrow but canceled...
and I'm here voicing out my hatred for accounting...
no wonder i can never pass my accounting

Bee ❤
1:01 AM

❤ Thursday, November 12, 2009

Life has changed so much ❤

Hmm .. Life has changed so much ..
Things change.. Maybe for good.. I'm not sure..
I no longer know if my actions are wrong or right ..
Yes as the title suggests, I'm confused ..
I always thought one would know for sure whether their actions are

right or wrong ..
I guess during times like this, you learn and grow up.
At least it is happening now and it is a challenge for me to move on..
Doing the right things or doing the things right?
I wish I could wipe off the good and sweet memories so that I would not

look back and hope that things stay the same..
But it seems like I cannot..
People around me keep telling me things are not the same anymore,
it is best that I just leave it the way it is now,
and most importantly, I'm happy..
I am quite reluctant to leave things the way they are because I don't

want to regret in the future, thinking that I did nothing to mend

things for I could foresee that they will turn ugly..
I could not think of what else I could do or what I have not done to

make things better..
But I really hope that all of us will be truly happy and sincere to

each other again..
I still believe, that one day would come.
I will stay optimistic

Had a conference among Ai Ai,Darling and CP just now.
I dont know why I was like suddenly dont know how to and what to talk
Sorry Ai Ai and darling sighzz

Bee ❤
12:09 AM

❤ Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Time Flies ❤

Done a few sheets of work just now.
It's already 4 in the morning,but I'm still awake
Why?because there are a lot of things running through my mind.
I have no idea what are all those things.
And I know my mind is not working well now.
So please forgive me if there's any typo

Okay,While surfing on facebook just now,
I found back one of my very very old online buddy
and missing from me already for 9 years.
20 minus 9 equals to 11.
Which mean I knew her since I'm age 11.
That time,I used to spend my chatting time with her on ICQ.
Know what is ICQ?lols !
People used to chat on ICQ before MSN.
Alright,then I reformatted my comp
without saving my ICQ num and password that time ._."
Then bla bla bla bla so,lost contact with her.
until today I found her from my friends' friend's cousin on facebook.=/
that's far I know loll.
I am glad that I've found her back,
And she told me that ,after a few weeks I never on ICQ that time
she tried to contact me,but failed.
She seem happy to found me back too,lolz,
actually I don't think so

Alright another thing is,I found another my old ex schoolmate on facebook too.
Chatted with her on facebook until "I don't know the time"
Told her 2 of our best buddies already married and had child.
She was shocked like nobody's business,lol =D

and...alright....The things keep running through my mind are

We always say time flies but I prefer to say 'time shoots'.
When I was young,
I always hope that I would grow old faster and get the freedom an adult gets.
In a blink of an eye, I'm 20 already.
I still remember the first day I stepped into my secondary school.
That feeling was like, "Oh my, how much I've grown.
I have to wear turquoise pinafore from today onwards instead of dark blue's".

After 5 years, on the last day of my schooling days,
I had a great time taking photos and giggling around with my friends.
Looking back at those photos,
I realized that many of my friends have turned into beautiful ladies and have I changed much physically?
I would say no.
Probably gained a little weight but apart from that, not much.
Looking better than last time?
Don't think so. Looking worse than last time?
Don't think so. Okay, at least I think no.
Why? As far as I can remember,
I used to wear baggy (or extremely over sized pants)
and loose t-shirts to tuition centres.
Oh well, I have not match those two together for ages already.
I still love wearing loose t-shirts to sleep though.
(= my all-time favorite pyjamas.

Next was going to college. Yeah you're right,
"Great! I get to wear whatever I want to classes!"
That didn't last long though.
Roughly after two months,
I whined about having repeated outfits to classes.
I remember that I bought a lot of new clothes during the next Chinese new year.
Perhaps more than I should. Sorry mom and dad )=

I was often told that I'm pampered but I just don't want to agree to it back then.
I suppose I have to admit this now.
I miss being pampered at home.
I miss HOME.
Mom makes a house A HOME.
Now that mom is not here with me,
I miss her a lot.

I miss my buddies.

In a blink of an eye, I use MSN already for 9 years

Bee ❤
4:02 AM

❤ Monday, November 9, 2009

Everything Happens For A Reason? ❤

Greetings to everyone out there!!
My blog has been DEAD for a freaking long period
due to some personal reasons,
and now.....
IT'S THE TIME TO WAKE IT UP AGAIN~!!
Anyway, it really does feel good to be back here,
blogging again,
like how I used to spend hours and hours blogging back when I was a teenager...
is the day I finally decided that I wana keep a blog ..
Probably cuz I'm feeling down now ..
And feel like pouring out my feelings now ..
Let me see ..
Why do I name this blog as "Everything Happens For A Reason"?
Well .. Basically everything happens for a reason ...Crapzzz
Actually cuz it's something I always hold on to when I face obstacles in life ..
Thanks to my buddy that I realized this principle of life ..
and....
Had been going through lots of stress and pressure lately...

The tide was rough...really rough...

After reading back at my recent posts,
I noticed that I had not mention a single thing about my exams.
I guess I have been trying to avoid talking about it.
Coz I skipped the exams ._."
coz of .....

I've been sick for few days.A week maybe?
I've recovered about 60%.
No more fever and body ache.
But terrible cough and mild headache.
(Dont want to mention about it)

I guess that's all for my first post ..
Hope there will be many posts from now on ..
^^ let's see if I can be THAT consistent ..

not everything is quantitative.
at least pain is one of it
the unmeasurable pain that really make me ache deep in the heart.

Bee ❤
1:08 AM

❤ Monday, November 2, 2009

A quote to remember ❤

'Loves the heart that hurts you, Never hurts the hearts that loves you'

Then first time I read this quote is about a month ago.
I feel it's a very meaningful phrase.
Though, seldom people can do in their daily life.
Even myself, I tend to hurt the hearts that love me more than I loving them.
Not in purpose of course!
I don't know what is the best way to show my love,
my concern and my care to whom I want to show.
Often what I got in reply will be the negative ones.
I don't know what I should do anymore.
Totally blank!!

Sometimes I really wish I can be like other people..
being very carefree, ignore others thinking and comments..
as long as im happy with what Im doing.. everything is ok..

Dear Derrick and his friends,
if you re readding this post
Doesn't mean I'm puttin attention or what so ever
I'm not an attention seeker or what....
I will feel better if I rant out on my blog....
and I can not dont let u view my blog
coz we are still friend

Thanks =)

Bee ❤
11:52 PM